PANTOUM ASHES

Hoping to find you next to me

Some mornings I wake up

Reaching out for a dream

I wish I could forget

 

Some mornings I wake up

And wish I had not

I wish I could forget

Like dust that spills past my fingers

 

I wish I had not

Felt the heat of your breath

This dust does slip past

but it whirls in my head

 

Permanent heat of your breath

Fogs my present mind

and whirls in my head

Like when your ghost was mine

 

Fogs in my present

in this roofless room

Like when your ghost was real

‘twas only the ruthless wind

 

In this roofless room

Pushed beneath dark lonely overcast

‘twas only the ruthless wind of you

And I wish you were never there

 

Pushed beneath a dark cloak

For this life, I would never care

And I wish you were never there

yet now all I do is carry

 

With this life, I never cared

for the sound that trumpets blew

yet now all I do is carry it

Over broken hourglasses too

 

The sound that trumpets blew

A hint of flame lost

Over a broken hourglass

in an empty home at noon

 

Recall that flame once lost

Just wanting you to notice

in an empty home at noon

soundly reaching for the curtains

 

As I wait for you to notice

I’ll set this house ablaze

My flames to reach the curtains

A conflagration to catches your gaze

 

Again

My lover

I can’t escape this falling

broken hourglasses

And spilled cold sands

Are only vanishing ashes

Like the empty spell of you

 

 

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